MARCH 1, 2022-Hearth London Magazine
Titania May says: I couldn’t walk past a window – so had FOUR operations at once to change my looks.
‘I remember it so vividly, ‘there goes Gonzo’ – the other kids would say.
They were referring to my nose. It was big and hooked, and I couldn’t stand it. I also had an overshot jaw. I was only 14 – and my looks made life tough.
I was just a young girl but I hated the way I looked to badly, that I wouldn’t walk past shop windows with my side profile facing that way. My silhouette revolted me.
As I grew older, the feeling just didn’t pass. I hated my looks. I’d be the one in the photos with friends always pulling a funny face because I couldn’t bear what my normal face looked like.
In the end, I just didn’t want to go out. What was the point in wearing nice clothes and making myself look good if my face was the way it was? I worked hard in my job in drug and drink dependency rehabilitation and always saw the good in people.
I just found it hard to do the same for myself.
I’d met my partner Rob Sage when I was just 11 and I was best mates with his sister. He’d never once remarked on my looks other than to say how great I was. It’s hard to believe someone when you feel so down about yourself on the inside.
Then ten years ago, we met again and hit it off. We’ve never looked back.
So two years ago, I plucked up the courage to make a call to a surgery. They did operations in Istanbul, Clinic Center.
‘I’ll get my nose done,’ I thought to myself.
But after several consultations because I had lots of questions, I’d made a bigger decision.
I was 48 and I wasn’t getting any younger. It was a now or never moment.
So, I booked an operation to have a neck lift, face lift, upper and lower lid lift and nose job all in one go. I wasn’t scared about having FOUR procedures in one go – things couldn’t have got any worse.
Rob supported me the whole way, although my decision was mine – and mine alone. Nothing would have stopped me once I’d decided.
The operation went brilliantly, and after two weeks off work – I was still convalescing but knew that my world was already so much different and happier.
Then in November last year, I had fat transfer and a chin implant at the same clinic. I love the results and can’t believe I waited so long to change how I felt.
Now I would love my nose tip done a little more and possible have my neck pulled a little tighter. I’m also having all of my teeth sorted out with implants and caps.
There’s no doubt that I feel more confident and also more feminine in every way.
I’m an advocate for all women doing whatever they need to change to feel good – and I always will be.
